Updated: Mar 24, 2019
Last week I received an opportunity that I could not pass up. It was doing something that was out of the box for me, something that I could not ease into and WAY out of my comfort zone.
It was what I wanted, I just lacked the years of experience that normally would make me feel comfortable taking on something this ambitious.
I could have said “No” due to the fact that I felt I was not ready, but I didn’t.
I said “Yes!” and felt that euphoria you feel when you are excited about a brand new, sparkling opportunity.
Wait for it…
Then all the personal vicious attacks got very loud in my mind.
“You can’t do this! Are you kidding me? You are not good enough to complete this task, let alone do it well!”
“You’re an idiot Julie. This was a stupid idea better left to someone MUCH more competent then you are!”
“How can you not screw this up? You know you are going to screw this up - don’t you?”
On and on it went.
For 10 straight days before the event, I had a migraine ranging from something I could not ignore, to one so bad that I needed to lay down in a dark room for a whole day.
Still, I would not go back on my word.
This opportunity was a chance to network and help other like-minded equestrians.
It was a chance to not only give back, but to listen to inspirational stories that were beyond anything I had ever heard.
The day I left for the event, the headache was gone. It was almost as if the devil had tried his hardest to keep me from accepting this opportunity and it was then that I realized how important it was that I go.